i suppose that is the thing about new york. it is always a little more than you had hoped for… other places may give you a sweet and soothing sense of level; but in new york there is always the feeling of something’s going to happen. it isn’t peace. but you know, you do get used to peace, and so quickly. but you never get used to new york. -dorothy parker
It’s not something I talk about often (mainly because it rarely, if ever, comes up organically and I don’t like to bring it up on my own), but for a lot of my adult life, I’ve struggled with a multitude of issues relating to anxiety, self-confidence, and just general “negative feelings.”
Despite the fact that my friends and family normally can’t get me to shut up for more than two minutes, for a long time my coping method was to NOT talk about my problems. I’d bury them deep down inside and then just EXPLODE on my poor parents and siblings. Seriously, bless them all. I’m incredibly lucky that they’re willing to put up with so many of my antics. I’ve pulled them through the ringer more times than I ever care to admit.
Anyway, the point of all of this is that I’m BEYOND proud to be on the Flywheel Blog today sharing my Flywheel success story. I don’t think I will ever be able to fully explain what Flywheel means to me and how much it’s helped me deal with my issues, but for the first time in a really long time, I feel okay with just being me.
Suicides go up every time a celebrity commits. If you’re thinking of committing, or even self harming yourself, please give these sites a look and numbers a call. We’ll feel for you, how we feel for them.
I urge everyone: if you are struggling, if you have thoughts that scare you, if you are going through a hard time, TALK TO SOMEONE. It is the first step and the hardest, but it is the most important. People will listen to you and want to help you. You just have to let them in a little.
Vacationing and spending a lot of time with my BFFs whenever possible.
Spending more time with my family than usual (little sister got married! Without a doubt the BEST day of both of our lives so far! I’m still bursting with big sister pride at seeing her so happy.)
Having big “we’re barreling towards 30, is this where we thought we’d be? How do you deal with the reality that the answer to that question may be no?” conversations with all of my friends (and my parents).
Spending lots and lots of time Flywheel-ing/running/taking care of myself (more on that later).
Overall, I’m just a lot happier and in a better place than I’ve been in ages. Those are the big guys. How’s your summer going Tumblr?