Sometimes when work overwhelms me, I make myself feel better by laying in bed and remembering two years ago when I was unemployed and used to cry myself to sleep 3-4 (true story) nights a week. It’s so over dramatic sounding but it’s my biggest motivator.
I looked up this post last night and sat and marveled at it for about five minutes. You’d never know by looking at it, but despite the fact that I’d just started interning at an NPO that is near and dear to my family, I was SO over New York. I was exhausted, worn out, and ready to get out of New York. It’s funny to look at that picture and think “she has no idea… that girl doesn’t realize that within three months she’ll be at a permanent job and she sure as hell can’t imagine how much busting her ass for all these years will pay off.” It’s funny but like I said, I look at things like that as my biggest motivator.
I’ve mentioned a few times over the past couple of weeks at work that I’m coming up on my two year anniversary in January. And each time, I keep getting responses of “but it seems like you’ve been here so much longer!” I feel that feeling a lot too, but where to them it’s awe, to me it is the culmination of more hard work than I ever knew I had in me. I don’t know where the next steps this path will eventually lead me, but as long as I keep that little frustrated 25 year old fire underneath me, I know it’s going to be okay.
"When it comes to making big life decisions, it’s easy to want to ask people we know for advice. And since so many people do it so often, it might even seem natural and good to ask for advice. But when it comes to major choices like career and relationships, I propose that we consult with ourselves most of all. Sure, we can ask our friends and loved ones what they think about our situation. They might even have some keen insight that we are not able to see with our own eyes. However, they will never have the innate knowledge that we possess in our own intuition. The trick is figuring out how to access our own quiet source of wisdom that is available to us at any point of time, which we so often ignore or overlook."
— Are you reading The Everygirl? You should be, because it’s got some really great content and has very quickly become one of my daily favorites.
Melissa Reyes, who graduated from Marist College with a degree in fashion merchandising last May, applied for a dozen jobs to no avail. She was thrilled, however, to land an internship with the Diane von Furstenberg fashion house in Manhattan. “They talked about what an excellent, educational internship program this would be,” she said. But Ms. Reyes soon soured on the experience. She often worked 9 a.m. to 9 p.m., five days a week. “They had me running out to buy them lunch,” she said. “They had me cleaning out the closets, emptying out the past season’s items.” Asked about her complaints, the fashion firm said, “We are very proud of our internship program, and we take all concerns of this kind very seriously.”
OMG GET OVER YOURSELF AND CLEAN THE CLOSET AND GO GET LUNCH. WE ALL DID IT AND YOU CAN, TOO.
As someone who did their fair share of temping and post-grad internships, I have a pretty strong feeling about this. Yes it sucks to be running errands and cleaning inventory as someone with a college degree, but I am incredibly grateful for the internships that I had. This girl should be thrilled that someone sees enough potential in her to give her a chance and prove to everyone that she DESERVES to be there instead of whining that “it isn’t fair.”
You may have noticed that a couple of weeks ago when I mentioned that I was going to be exploring the option of going to grad school, I neglected to say what I would be eventually getting a degree in.
There’s a reason for that. At the time, I wasn’t ready to share details yet (mainly because there weren’t any), but with my plan for a degree, I’m also taking a flying leap and changing careers and industries.
After a lot of late nights and long days of wondering what I was doing with my life, I came to a pretty big conclusion. I’m not cut out for corporate America. As much as I like PR and social media and beauty products, I don’t have the edge necessary to talk about them for a living.
So I thought about what I’m good at and what else I’m really passionate about and came to a conclusion. NON-PROFIT. I love helping people and in the grand scheme of my life, I want to look back one day and know that I made a difference. I did something that matters. I realize that that statement is a little idealistic and incredibly optimistic, but then again so am I.
Which leads me to a little bit of a big announcement. I GOT AN INTERNSHIP doing non profit development starting Monday!
I am so incredibly excited to start this phase of my life and look forward to seeing where it takes me.